The problem with today is that it’s too easy not to care; it’s easy to be negative, and it’s certainly too easy to not give a fuck about and not make the effort to make an end meet.
And that’s the sad truth, we’re losing ourselves as humans. If we know how much crazier and ‘fucked up’ this world is getting, why are we destroying it and becoming so self destructive?
We need to help each other to forgive, to forget, to understand, to believe, to be honest, and to be compassionate.
But most importantly, to love.
I’ve learned to let go of everything that has been holding me back, and I’m learning to be human again.
Until we can love each other and especially ourselves, then this world will always be lacking something so transparent yet exists all around. Humanity.
So set yourself free, and don’t be afraid. We are not alone.
"An eye for an eye only makes the whole world blind."
"I wish there was a way to know you were in the good old days, before you actually left them," - Andy Bernard
We’ve finally reached half way through the year 2013 and I can’t help but say ‘I told ya so’. I knew that this year would somehow top off 2012 last year, and that is definitely saying something. In a span of barely 6 months, a mammoth of events have occurred around me; whether it’s aimed at me or people within my surroundings.
I’ve already completed Semester 1 of my third year of University. Well, not so much completed because I am currently in exam period. But in terms of the working Semester, today officially ends Week 12 and what a rollercoaster it has been.
School has become drastically hectic even though I am in the study period; I have to start looking and decide what I want to do after I graduate which may happen (fingers crossed) if I can keep up passing all the classes I need done. I’m liking the idea of finding a job sometime soon and saving money to go travel. I’m really excited that I’m finally able to put these plans into action. I know I can do it if I put the time and effort into it. It’ll happen!
Sadly, I missed out the most recent camp that consisted of a large group containing the Backseat Ballads crew and a lot of new faces. If I remember correctly there were about 15 people on that trip. I wasn’t able to go due to school commitments which is a real shame, I heard lots of good things about that adventure. But I hope that the crew decide to have another one soon, I’ll make sure not to miss out on the next one!
Another downer that’s positive and negative that happened to me was that my belongings was stolen a couple of months ago. My stupid and careless self was to blame; I had an expensive laptop, tablet and headphones (I miss you AKG460’s ;() taken which put me in a very annoying position. Funny thing was, I was only upset for about 20 minutes until I just sucked it up and said “yep, it’s gone. Can’t do anything about it!”. I was actually more upset about the fact I had lost a lot of my hand written work, AND that someone stole my journal that was inside my bag too. If you ever read this: fuck you. Secondly, thank you, because it worked out better for me in the end. Besides, you can’t get into my laptop and tablet since I’ve password protected the shit out of those things. And even if you did, I’d see your location on Dropbox. Haha.
Well, the positive side to this was that I have a very awesome brother who helped me out, and also a University which also looks after its students very well. Cut short and without getting into too much detail, the University was able to help me fund for a new laptop after hearing my case. So in the end, it worked out for me.
Aside from that, there’s lots to look forward to: Some of the Backseat Ballads crew and a few of our close friends (mainly of the male gender) have secured tickets to Taylor Swift’s concert in Melbourne, during December! I am beyond stoked and do not give two shits about what anyone thinks. I like her music and that’s all I care about. It’s funny, who would’ve thought I’d be jumping from Hardcore and Metal gigs to… a world renowned Country-Pop star idol? I certainly didn’t. Things surprise you when you really think about it. It’ll definitely be an experience and night to remember, I’m sure of it. Even though out of context it does sound…. Creepy and weird for a bunch of guys to see a female-fanbased star. But whatever.
Speaking of music, this year has seen so many great releases and even artists coming down in my town of Melbourne. I know I’ve seen a lot of bands and artists already in the past 7 or so years, but this year seems to top off everything so far. I got to meet 2 people; one a solo artist by the name of Ben Howard and vocalist Johnathan Vigil of the hardcore band The Ghost Inside. Both amazing people who are inspirational and motivational within their music. The messages in which they send out through that media format are simply astounding; I think the real reason why music exists is the connection itself. It’s that moment when you understand it, and you can’t help but feel that adrenaline rush or shiver go down your spine. It hits home.
My friends and family. My friends and family are amazing, in the sense that I’m getting that privilege to watch them grow. No longer am I getting too bitter or jealous about where they’re at, but I’m genuinely happy for them. And it’s so good to see it happen. Everyone is finally making decisions for themselves which I think is the upmost important thing for anyone. Friends are falling in love. Friends getting married. Friends having kids. Friends are establishing new careers. Friends are travelling and exploring. Friends are moving overseas. Friends are daring to get out of their comfort zone. Friends are picking up each other whenever one of us is down. Friends are what they are. Friends are honest.
For those not in the know, I’ve… also met someone which surprised me in the biggest way you could imagine. It’s weird to think that all along this time, someone unlikely who may be just there in your life, could end up being someone you’d share your most vulnerable self with. Someone that you never realized could share so many things not just in common, but knows how to put 110% into life itself. Just effortless. And it’s amazing and frightening at the same time; I still can’t get my head around things as to how or why they happen, because it just feels so right and so in place; so I’m just going to smile and be thankful for everything that’s going on right now.
All I want to say is, I’m happy. Through everything that I’ve been and all the obstacles that stood in my way so far, I couldn’t have been any happier with where I am right now.
This is my half-year report I guess. That’s life.
Stay posi. x
because i don’t really need to wonder at all.